March 2005

I am coming to realize more deeply that those people and events in my life that I would change, that seem to get in my way, are not only their own thing happening – that has nothing to do with me, they are also the sandpaper of my life that refines me, that challenges me to weaken or strengthen in my resolve and path.  They seem to be stumbling blocks, tripping stones, frustrations, but really they are focusing agents.  Like picking up a crystal to look through the prisms, I have to focus through one lens to see clearly.  It is my choice which lens to look through, where and how I focus is my choice. 

Do I allow myself to be distracted by another’s issues…or even my own issues of resentment or need…or do I rise above and allow these potential stumbling blocks to become sunbeams shedding a focusing beam on my highest aspirations.  We can all be cranky and demanding children in our time.  I can participate in that and be distracted, or I can let another handle his/her own emotional meltdown and use its energy to focus me powerfully in the direction of my own healing and transformation.  I find as I do the latter, everything in my path validates, supports, and strengthens my healthy spiritual path. 

This much is essential:  Blessings upon those who serve G-d’s will in preparing me.  Their sandpaper makes me strong.